As a mother of four and with a former career in business administration, I started to notice that some form of invisible barrier prevented people from getting ahead. These barriers, I later found, take the form of core beliefs and fears that are completely unconscious.
My first own experiences with kinesiology and energetic psychotherapy were in the 2000s as a patient, where it helped me function better as a mother. I was sold, and decided to enroll for professional training to be a kinesiologist.
During that program we had to make presentations, and I had to speak in front of the group. "Crap," I thought, "that's not going to go well." Past experience had taught me that the longer I spoke, the more excitement and fearful i became. My tremors could be noticed from the back of the room. However, this time it was different. I presented the results of our group in a relaxed and easy manner. "That can't be true," I thought, and therefore tried again at the next opportunity to speak in front of the group. The success was repeated. The change could only be a result of my kinesiological de-stressing. This experience convinced me, that major life changes are indeed possible!
I became more curious, kept going, and my enthusiasm for the possibilities that kinesiology offered grew and grew. Removing the tight ties of my own beliefs and behaviors created by my socialization, like a snake skin, also improved my relationship with my daughter. Little by little I learned to live independently with an inner freedom.
Later when Steven Porge's research into Polyvagal theory was released, and Peter Levine's Somatic Experiencing also, it was immediately obvious to me how their work relates to my client's protection layers, and I integrated their research into my practice ever since.
During the 90s I was doing the classic twenties thing of making a home and family, studying full time and helping develop an eco-village. I was also doing weekly psychotherapy, and involved with the then evolving mens' movement.
It was the involvement with community development in particular that helped inform a belief that by working together in small groups most of the worlds problems could be solved. In particular eco-village and cohousing development requires (and provides) a rapid experiential learning process. In order to make the required tens of thousands of decisions together you had better get really good at it. This inevitably led the project members to bump up into interpersonal process issues and learning to deal with conflict in a healthy way. It was an incredibly rich and empowering time.
After that, and a string of relationships with partners where with each one i seemed to be repeating the same mistakes and struggles. This was when i discovered the value of Qigong to calming my nervous system. I also leaned heavily on time spent in nature alone. Then while helping out at a retreat center for 18 months, i started learning and teaching yoga, an interest that was furthered with teacher training in India in 2018.
It was after that i inexplicably found myself in Berlin. The place, it is said, that you go to reinvent yourself. Well i was there so decided to go visit four of the larger ecovillages in europe. There i found that, not only were they focusing on the three E's (energy, environment and economy) as we were, but they had a distinct commitment to healing and spirituality. This was the missing piece of the puzzle for me, and it was at a large summer festival at one such eco-village south of Berlin where Sibylle and Peter's alliance was forged.